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     I believe the modern Christmas truly is just for kids, as it should be. I am all for a childhood to be as car-free as possible. However for adults Christmas should turn into a feeling—as opposed to being a time of materialistically getting presents. This feeling inside should make us as conscious beings if for no other time than just one single day a year—feel like being a little bit nicer, or happier, or just down right more decent all around. Forget all the political and religious mumbo jumbo bullshit that is choking life right out of existence. I wish just for one day, people would look over their fences, and say “hello neighbor we can pick up sticks against one another tomorrow, but for today let us laugh, and breathe an easy sigh of relief because we made it here today to enjoy today.” ‘Let tomorrow go in whatever direction today could take us.’ Sad really!

     Here I am 35 years old, and I am yet again going to spend another well Christmas has come and gone, but here it is New Years, and I am again going to be alone, with no money to go out—no want to either. No special someone to ring in the new year with by choosing to be with that one person you want to have there with you the very minute things start over, and become refreshed in this new born of a year. Either with a kiss or—makin the sheets sing—I am more than hopeful next New Year’s Eve my sheets will be regular opera singers. (HAHAHA!)

An old friend of mine from high school messaged me a while ago saying “my daughter is selling Girl Scout cookies would I want some.” My first thought is of course “if her daughter is selling these cookies then why didn’t her daughter make the sales pitch.” I mean come on let her get all “Billy Mays,” on me, and make a sale. When I was a kid I remember my school was selling Rainforest Crunch which was a peanut brittle I think. I just know it sucked carrying it, and tasted like shit. If a kid pawned enough of this garbage off then they could win some useless hunk of shit thing they would never use. Like one of the “prizes” offered was a double plastic ball clacker thing. A person takes this fucking thing waves it up and down like a fucking asshole just to hear the balls go clack, clack, clack—another prize was this bright neon yellow fanny pack. Now fanny packs blew up at this time, and I wanted me that some bitch. So I schlep that crap up and down my ginormous hill, but it was a prize for attaining a set goal, and I wanted them—so I did it.

    After I finally decided on what cookies I wanted to get we had talked a few minutes, and caught up. Finally we said goodbye, and proceeded to stop talking; all of a sudden she messages me back, and said “ask people at work and other people u know please and ty.” I see that, and I automatically think “now you want me to sell your daughters cookies? Pshhh get the fuck out of here!” So if anyone wants any just let me know—so I can tell her! HaHaHaHa NOT!

Live to learn

     I am enjoying my experiences during my college life, hoever, There is one thing I don't like, and that is how a person needs to specialize in one thing. I myself am so curious in a wide range of subjects. Too many in fact to name. I tell you if I could just sped the rest of my life learning everything that interested me I would consider that a life well spent, and fulfilled.
      Everytime I see something interesting enough to want to know more I try to immerse myself in the subject right next to a trained individual. For instance I have always wanted to know how to do auto body work, and asked a friend who does it for a living if he would want to train me. Sadly he refused, all because his brother had worked for him, and then later left, so he said he wouldn't waste his time ever again. I told him I wouldn't waste his time, but he still refused. Sure I watch YouTube videos on different things, but most videos are real short, and don't give much instruction.
      I am thinking of starting a page on Facebook to try and introduce people who know things with people who want to know things. Of course it would all be free. My hopes in doing this would not only be to meet interesting new people, but to curb my insatiable hunger for knowledge. I really do not want to waste the back half of my life; the front was a big enough waste to last 5 life times.
      Who knows if I will get to learn the things I want to, but it should be an interesting ride. Wish me luck.

Yester year

 I wish it were a hundred or so years ago long before there were computers, and ginormous conglomerates and big business. The reason i wish such and ignorant thought is because if I were alive back then as ambitious as i am, and as hungry both literally and figuratively as I am I would quickly rise to the top of anything I put my mind to. Now since I live in this modern shangri-La shit-hole-- I can't do shit. No one will hire me for anything other than cashier work, and I am a hell of a lot better than that. Now don't get me wrong being a cashier is good honest work work, but it is no challenge for me, I am unstimulated by it. At one time i was the workinest fool you ever knew. I had two jobs before I was hurt. I was never happier than I was back then. Ever since I became disabled I have had to work smarter, not harder, but how can I do that though? I need a job that isn't very physically taxing. I have resume's out there, yet nothing. The most important thing the work I get needs to be part time so I can continue my education. Getting my degree is so important-- probably the most important thing I will ever do in my life. I am struggling way too hard. I need something good to happen soon. I CANNOT work retail anymore. Hopefully the universe will cough something up for me-- I am so hurtin for certain. Throw me a frickin bone will you please! I have re-tuned my resume to show I am in school, and how I am on the community of student representatives, to show I like doing things for the betterment of others; plus I am able to work as a team. I have even gone as far as to ask my professors to right letters of recommendation. I have even joined a site called Linkdin all in the hopes of catching some employers eye enough to say "hell yeah a guy like you we could use." Nothing so far. Oh well! who knows what the future holds! I just hope whatever it is will happen sooner, rather than later.

ACCUPLACER

Here I am a mere 2 weeks away from finishing another semester of college. In my English composition class I am doing pretty good so I am not at all worried about that. I, however have been having serious doubts about my algebra skills. Knowing I will have to put up, or shut up in the last class, because we have to take the accuplacer. I decided to take it today ahead of time. Now as I said I been kind of nervous about this. I had told myself last night im going to do well, and even did it this morning right when i woke up. I listened to awesome music riding down to CCV. The whole time I am also saying "I am going to get a 64." I sat down, and took it nice and slow. Now I did actually guess on a few questions, but I must have gotten most right. I finished up, and I asked the nice lady "what number am I shooting for?" She replied "56" I look at my score and it was 79. CHALLENGE COMPLETED!!! WHATS NEXT????