Yester year

 I wish it were a hundred or so years ago long before there were computers, and ginormous conglomerates and big business. The reason i wish such and ignorant thought is because if I were alive back then as ambitious as i am, and as hungry both literally and figuratively as I am I would quickly rise to the top of anything I put my mind to. Now since I live in this modern shangri-La shit-hole-- I can't do shit. No one will hire me for anything other than cashier work, and I am a hell of a lot better than that. Now don't get me wrong being a cashier is good honest work work, but it is no challenge for me, I am unstimulated by it. At one time i was the workinest fool you ever knew. I had two jobs before I was hurt. I was never happier than I was back then. Ever since I became disabled I have had to work smarter, not harder, but how can I do that though? I need a job that isn't very physically taxing. I have resume's out there, yet nothing. The most important thing the work I get needs to be part time so I can continue my education. Getting my degree is so important-- probably the most important thing I will ever do in my life. I am struggling way too hard. I need something good to happen soon. I CANNOT work retail anymore. Hopefully the universe will cough something up for me-- I am so hurtin for certain. Throw me a frickin bone will you please! I have re-tuned my resume to show I am in school, and how I am on the community of student representatives, to show I like doing things for the betterment of others; plus I am able to work as a team. I have even gone as far as to ask my professors to right letters of recommendation. I have even joined a site called Linkdin all in the hopes of catching some employers eye enough to say "hell yeah a guy like you we could use." Nothing so far. Oh well! who knows what the future holds! I just hope whatever it is will happen sooner, rather than later.