Last night I had a crazy dream that was so real to me. I mean it was a pretty awesome one. What happened in this dream was something I won't soon forget. It happened a short time before I woke up; as they always do. This is usually when my most vivid dreams happen. Now what happened was precisely this. Me, and this faceless woman are about to kiss for the first time. I know it was a first kiss because of all the classic signs were there. Signs like the apprehension as we moved toward each other, the squishy guts, the racing heart beat and the excited rush I got as our bottom lips made the first contact.This dream was so--real. So real in fact my heart was still pounding when I woke up
Now, I'm a firm believer that our subconscious tell us things through our dreams. In this case what exactly my dream is telling me, I do not know. Maybe my subconscious has noticed a woman noticing me. See I am very (as a friend of mine would say) girl dumb. I never can tell if a woman has any interest in me. Maybe what this is is my subconscious saying "psst dummy she digs you, so make a play already!"
I like to think of myself as a fairly sharp guy. I'm pretty astute to the world around me I think. I pride myself on not being the type of guy to let anything get put over on him, but somethings do get by my radar. Well there was that one time with "her." I mean, I knew how I had felt, but was unaware how she felt about a chance of an "us," until the night before she left.
So now, I again have to ask myself--was this an astute intuition, or wishful thinking? Who knows, all I can do is just sit back, and see what happens from this point on. I would like very much to have this be a possible thing. Ah! who knows.
I love how this writing played how in specific detail I could write up picture the same scenario goin down. Love those dreams. In a way I hope to have that dream! I appreciate how you freely write there does not seem to be any restraint or barriers about how you wrote. Literally writing freely without any specific audience except what you had to say. That is as a writer what I admire in how you wrote in this piece. I hope a woman comes into your life who loves you for what sensitive caring individual you really truly are for at this point that's what I most admire about you, it comes out in writing.
ReplyDeleteI agree with James's comments about admiring your ability to write so freely. You have such a great flow about you, Chris! I love the dream. I definitely know that feeling and I have had that dream, but for me, it's so funny - just when I'm about to kiss the guy I remember that I am married, and I realize that this guy isn't my husband. Whoops! I always wake up from those dreams and say to my husband, "Sorry about that guy in my dream." He totally gets it. Dream are such a trip! Thank you so much for sharing about your dream girl. May your dream come true!!!
ReplyDeleteChris, I love the great detail of the first kiss. Most of us know that feeling, and yet forget it too quickly. You have captured it forever in your writing, and memorialized it for us. Well done! I will add one more thing as your friend; if it is who I think it is... go for it! We talked about this last week, and you shouldn't hold back you have every right to be happy :)
ReplyDeleteDear Chris,
ReplyDeleteIt's so cool that you have such vivid dreams! Sometimes I do also, but I would rather sleep very soundly with no dreams at all because when I dream I still feel like I'm awake.
I really enjoyed the feelings you described surrounding the first kiss...and your ending is brilliant. =)
"Who knows, all I can do is just sit back, and see what happens from this point on. I would like very much to have this be a possible thing. Ah! who knows."
Take care,
Emma
Love the part about the squishy guts; such an awesome word to describe that apprehensive feeling. Freud had many theories about dreams. His main premise was that dreams are the fulfillment of a wish--which seems appropriate for what you have described. Hopefully your wish or dream in this case will come true. Keep those breathe mints handy ;-)
ReplyDeleteChris,
ReplyDeleteI thin that this is amazing. I love the fact that it is a dream and I love how honest you are with your writing. Not to mention how great your sense of humor is and how it comes through when you write. I love the details and the line, "I know it was a first kiss because of all the classic signs were there." That just brings back so many memories and I really appreciate you sharing this with us. Great job!